Saturday, March 28, 2009

Bad Blogger!

So I've come to the realization that I am just not cut out for being a blogger! I mean, really. . .once a month?! What am I thinking?!!!! Although I do enjoy the whole blogging experience, it is so ridiculously absurd for me to think that I can find the time to write about all the things I experience in a day in a cute, attention-holding manner so that all my cyber-friends and family out there can giggle, ooh and/or aaah their way through my life!! (sigh)

Once a month. It seems to be about all I can handle! And really, how do I sum up a month's worth of happenings, ponderings, silliness, retardness in a simple little blog! It is simply not even possible. At least not for me anyway.

I do want to share something that I learned recently though. It's pretty profound really and it makes me really want to be a better person. Not just sometimes. . .but always.

I think first, I need to share a little secret of mine. It is that I don't always want to do what I know I should. Sometimes I feel like it is ok to be just a little bit rebellious. To be just a little bit not 100% obedient. I know. . .it's rotten of me! I am probably the ONLY person I know that feels like this! Right?! Anyway. . .I feel like lately it's more of a struggle than it used to be to want to do what I should. I find myself over and over before tempted by things that haven't tempted me for, literally, years!

Last Wednesday I went to the temple (I go every Wednesday, 9:30 am session) and I traditionally go to Deseret Book afterwards. . .just because. Usually I don't buy anything but I find myself getting inspired just looking around. This day, however, I was looking for something to help me feel stronger. To help me feel like I could overcome these crazy feelings I'd been having. I looked at several books. . .all of which I wished I could buy. But I knew that I probably woudn't have the time to actually READ anything! So I started to look at the CD's. I picked up a Book on CD by C. Max Caldwell called Power From on High. I started listening to it. There are many things that have helped me and given me reason to feel better about myself. One thing that I heard today though has really impacted me and I hope that by sharing it, someone else will benefit also.

Ezra Taft Benson is quoted by Brother Caldwell and said, "When obedience ceases to be an irritant and becomes our quest, in that moment, God will endow us with power." What a great principle! To know that as we strive to be obedient God will give us the power we need to be obedient! All things are possible with the Lord! It is because of Him that we can succeed.

I am so very grateful to know that God will help me. By myself, I am so weak and will always fall short of what is needed. But with Him I am strong and can achieve all things.


Here's a picture and a good quote. Not necessarily related to the above post, but what do you expect from someone who only blogs once a month and then rambles on and on and on and on. . .