Friday, May 8, 2009

My new favorite song

I bought a new cd this week. It's become something of a tradition for me to go to Deseret Book after being at the temple and buy a "treat" for myself. This week I picked up Hilary Week's new cd, If I Only Had Today. Something about it just "looked" like it'd be what I needed. The photography on the insert is awesome. Makes me want to find a pianist and take her into some beautiful meadow with her piano. . .well, maybe I'll find a violinist!!!

Anyway, I listened to it yesterday and there's a song called, "Just Let Me Cry" that has immediately wrapped itself around my heart. I can't figure out how to get it on here for you to listen to, but if you go to Hilary's website you can listen to a little snipit there. Just click here to listen (btw, the entire album is awesome! You should get it. . .money well spent for sure!)

Here's the lyrics. And can I just say that it is EXACTLY what I needed this week. I've been caught up in worrying about being so emotional about something that is so far in the past. . .yet still such a constant source of pain. I worry about how my emotions will affect those around me. I don't want to appear weak or unstable in my faith. I don't want to make other feel uncomfortable when I display moments of emotion. Anyway. . .here's the lyrics.

I believe that everything happens for a reason
We're not just tossed by the wind or left in the hands of fate
But sometimes life sends a storm that's unexpected
And we're forced to face our deepest pain

When I feel the heartache begin to pull me under
I dig my heels in deep and I fight to keep my ground
Still at times the hurt inside grows stronger
And there's nothing I can do but let it out

Just let me cry
I know it's hard to see
But the pain I feel
Isn't going away today
Just let me cry
Till every tear has fallen
Don't ask when and don't ask why
Just let me cry

When I agreed that God could put this heart inside me
I understood that there would be a chance that it would break
But I know He knows exactly how I'm feeling
And I know in time He'll take the pain away
But for now

Just let me cry
I know it's hard to see
But the pain I feel
Isn't going away today
Just let me cry
Till every tear has fallen
Don't ask when and don't ask why
Just let me cry

I have felt joy the kind that makes my heart want to sing
And so my tears are not a surrender
I'll feel that way again
But for now
For this moment

Just let me cry
I know it's hard to see
But the pain I feel
Isn't going away today
Just let me cry
Till every tear has fallen
Don't ask when and don't ask why
Just let me cry

I believe that everything happens for a reason.

Thank you, Hilary Weeks, for writing such a perfect song for me!

6 comments:

  1. I couldn't find a place to hear the song. :( But thanks for sharing the words! It gave me the chills b/c those words are true.. it is okay to hurt even when we know and truly believe God's plan. I can't wait to see you, Patti! You mean a lot to me and it has been TOO long!

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  2. Lara, I fixed the link. It's just a little snipit, but it'll give you an idea of the whole. Thanks for your comments and love! I am so looking forward to visiting in June. I might have to keep your baby awake a couple extra times!! (hehe) Love you!!!!

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  3. Oh Patti, I agree with Lara on the whole, I AM SO SORRY we kept waking up Laurie Ann. But she was just so cute. Now I have a 3 yr old that loves to wake up her little sister. I've thought about what we did to you many times in the past year ;) I sure love you. I'd love to have you wake up my baby anytime ;) just because that means you'll be with me AND . . .you're old enough you can help me take care of her :)

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  4. Patti-Nothing to do with your blog, but I will be out in Denver the week of June 1st for work, I would like to stop by. Email Emily with your number. Brian Kayner

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  5. haha ... I love that you'll keep my baby awake! that really got my funny bone .. and I needed a good laugh today. Thanks!

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  6. Patti, thank you for sharing such personal experiences! You lift me, your example inspires me. It has taken me many years to learn that emotions are to be experienced and allowed to move on, if I fight against the feelings it makes things so much worse. Cry if you need to cry. Please don't judge yourself for being reminded of a painful time in your life, it is part of who you are. I love you, Amy

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