Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I spent the day at a gymnastics school playing with a bunch of little kids. The instructor had them all dress up in their halloween costumes and I was there to take pictures of them all. It is one of the best things I get to do! Malory went with me today. She is such a fun daughter to have around. I think she may have had as much fun as the adorable little preschoolers! I get to go again on Thursday and Friday.

It is quite dangerous, actually, for me to do such activities though. It makes me want to go back to doing my own thing full-time. Yet, I know that this isn't the time for that. Yet, that is so hard to stay committed to! I truly hate working retail hours. Maybe hate is too strong of a word to use. . . No! Actually it isn't. But I suppose it's good that I hate it so much. I don't think I will get complacent where I am at. I will always be trying to find a way to move on and have control of my life back again. Just don't tell my district manager that.

I read a really great quote this morning that I want to share. It's from a guy named Wayne Dyer. He is an author. He says,

"You'll seldom experience regret for anything that you've done. It is what you haven't done that will torment you. The message, therefore, is clear. Do it! Develop an appreciation for the present moment. Seize every second of your life and savor it. Value your present moments. Using them up in any self-defeating ways means you've lost them forever."

I really appreciate this because I am one who definitely has a problem with being self-defeating. Even to admit that is a HUGE step for me. A few close friends know this about me. They know my hopes, dreams, aspirations and know that I can succeed. But I don't know it. And it scares me into not doing anything. Do you ever find that to be true about yourself? Please tell me I'm not the only one who has this problem? What do you do to overcome it? How have you pushed past the paralyzing fear to do something that you REALLY want to do?! I need some great advice here, so pour it on me!!!


  1. Hey Patti-I so know what you mean. For me, keeping a journal, reading my scriptures and putting all I can in my callings works for me. Then when something comes up that I need to exercise the faith to tackle or "leap" into, then I know I have done all I can do for the Lord and He will in turn bless me in my hopes, dreams and aspirations. You and your family are central to His plan. Remember to lean on Him and give him all your fears and He will help you conquer anything in your way.

    Love you! Nicole

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  2. I think this is something that as women that we do to ourselfs...I know that I have had that same challenge and some of my husbands advice has been the best. He always tells me focus on what you can control..Because I am always focusing on things that are not working out how I planned them or a lot of what if's...for example loosing weight I have been working out every day and have not lost much of anything...but what I can control is going to the gym and working the hardest I can and by focusing on that I keep going and I have kept and met those goals....and then celibrated that fact. I also have a really good book that I like I don't know if you have read it but it is called "leadership and self deception" by the Arberger Institute. It is about thinking out of the box...about others which I know you do...and also yourself (this is the harder part) But it talks about being true to yourself...good book!!
    But also for me I do best when I celibrate the little things...finish something and then celibrate it...I don't mean go out to eat or have a party but have a little celibration...examples...play uno with your kids...something little like that to celibrate and laugh and it makes life that much better and little moments that may not seem that great or important but they are a real memory and celibration...because really the things that we remember most are the little moments. If you tie your sucesses, be it how small they may seem on paper, to real memories then they seem much bigger and more meaningful.

    But know that you are not the only one out there working on this!! Keep going because you are amazing!!

  3. John 14:27 "...Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

    Ever since I read your post, this verse has been going through my mind. It just took me a while to find it, so I could give you the reference.