A New Season

I have been very neglectful when it comes to this silly little blog. I actually completely forgot about it for a little bit as I dealt with "life". It's crazy how life seems to just take over and everything that we want to do just gets put onto the back burner for awhile. It's crazy, for sure!

The summer swept by and we are in the midst of a very cold Fall already. Colorado has seen it's first snow, much to my disappointment. And just as the season has changed, so too has much in my life. Again, much to my disappointment!

In a nutshell, I am in the process of "closing" down my studio. I have gone to work full-time (plus) for another portrait company. It is a good thing. . .and not. I am still trying to convince myself that I didn't "fail" as a photographer. . .I'm just moving on. The main reason I have changed directions is because I found myself being too involved with my business and not involved enough with my family. I realized that I really loved being at the studio, working and that I wasn't really enjoying being at home with my family. I recognized the error in my thinking, but didn't know how to change anything. On the one hand, I felt grateful that I enjoyed my work so much, but I also kept thinking about something David O McKay once said about how success outside the home cannot compensate for failure within. I decided to pray about it and ask for help. It didn't take long for things to change and I soon found myself with very little work to do. It took me all summer to recognize it, but finally I realized that this was probably an answer to my prayer. Just not the answer I had hoped for! It was time for me to change gears and put more focus on being a mom. I applied for a management position at The Picture People and was hired almost immediately. It's not my ideal place to be, but the bills are getting paid and I get to be home with the kids more and be "mom" more.

I still have aspirations to do other things and continue to try to figure out how to do what I want to do. It's a battle with my self-confidence. There seems to be a constant battle trying to figure out what I'm suppose to do, what I need to do and what I want to do and how all these fit together--if they even do fit together!

Times and seasons. Always changing. Always learning.